baby maybe someday
August 31, 2003 Liz is yawning.

So it's been 2 totally porn-less weeks. My brother sold my 15 tapes and 2 DVD's for a paltry $17 on Ebay. Isn't that sad? I think it's pretty sad.

And no, I have not kept any "back up porn" for when I might get a little itchy for some self-love. The only porn-like tape that I currently possess is Matt's copy of "Between the Cheeks," and I would watch that only if things got really scary, because Between the Cheeks is uhh.. a little kooky. Not my kind of taste, really. I don't know why Matt gave it to me, he's had it since he was like 14 or something. But I guess we have to move on from our porn sometimes.

I just thought I should give a porn update.

Yesterday was a really bad day for me. But it resulted in a turning point. Tomorrow, September starts. Remember Hardcore March? Well, hardcore March didn't work for a variety of reasons. But this September will be like.. Spectacular September. I'm going to get it together. I'm going to face my fears and my quirks and my self-esteem issues and I'm going to deal with them. This last week was horrible.. I didn't do anything productive aside from work out everyday, which is good, but easy. Really, the highlight of my day is working out. I have that down. The whole eating part is what I have a problem with.

It occured to me this week that there is actually people out there who don't have a problem with eating. They eat when they're hungry, they eat healthy food, and that's it. I don't know any of these people, but I'm sure they exist somewhere. It must be nice.

Anyway. This next month is going to be hardcore, whether I like it or not. It just has to be. I'm just so tired of myself and my issues, and I have everything I need to just get over myself and do it.

While I was watching Finding Nemo last night, Matt was at Texas Stadium having a 30 minute conversation with the coach of the Dallas Cowboys. That's crazy. It drives me absolutely fucking crazy, and I have to do something about this.

Also, I watched Legend of the Fall today and woooo, Brad Pitt is just the fucking sexiest man ever! This is what Jennifer Aniston gets to wake up to:

*sigh* He is so hot in that movie. Seriously. I want him.

Okay then.

Later, I will do the last installment of the Ex-Boyfriend Series. Just to remind you, the whole point of that is leading up how I met Matt, which I will do tomorrow because it's Labor Day. That probably made no sense. And I apologize.

Tomorrow I'm going to San Antonio. No reason why. Just because I can.

*****

What was Liz doing a year ago?

"BB and I have been together for almost 5 years. Seriously, 5 years. October is our anniversary. In that 5 years, he has never given me the frequency of the orgasm he gave me yesterday. First of all, there's not a whole lot of oral sex going on, but there was yesterday, and he did something different and oh yeah.. I had the type of orgasm that was usually just reserved for what I can only give myself for some reason. But this was one amazing orgasm. I really enjoyed it, people. Oral sex orgasms = good times! But I was twisted into all kinds of strange positions and now I'm a little sore. Plus I think I have whiplash from the accident. Maybe not. But I'm not a happy camper today."

What was Liz doing 2 years ago?

"Well, the game wasn't too bad. He pays attention to the game and I pay attention to the people. Tonight it was a bunch of 16 and 17 year old high school kids. What I noticed was how all the guys are starting to resemble Boy Bands. Like, in a hardcore way. And they're all touchy feely with other guys. This did not happen when I was in high school. Some of the ways these boy band guys dressed.. no. It just did not used to be cool. It's a little scary, really. And the girls.. my god, did they just paint on their clothes or what? It looked like they got the smallest size they could find and squeezed their big giant boobs into it."



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