What is the difference between a drug dealer and a whore?

A whore washes off her crack before she tries to sell it again.

Well, I laughed a lot anyway.

I have a lot of stuff rolling around in my brain tonight, so this is probably going to be a long one. Reviewers might want to skip it, although there JUST MIGHT BE some of those "emotions" you guys are always talking about.

Last night I was surpised to find myself in the midst of having an actual social life. It was all very exciting!

Joey and I went to see Elf. We had an enjoyable ride to the theater, complete with making each other crack up in different kinds of british accents. That's always fun, right? Joey makes me giggle.

We met one of his friends at the theater, and it was good stuff. The movie, however, wasn't such good stuff. It was really funny for the first half, but like Joey said, it was like they changed writers in the middle. Towards the end, it started taking on one of those "We have to have spirit and love each other so we can save Christmas!" Yeah. In other words, lame.

We then went back to Joey's apartment and I doodled a nice little picture with a piece of paper and a blue pen while Joey and his friend got high. They seemed to be having fun with this activity, but since I sorta have this record of not actually ever doing drugs in my whole entire life (except, okay, yeah.. that whole botched pot experience on my 19th birthday, but I don't think I actually did anything productive with that.. bah), I decided not to partake. I dunno.. I guess I sort of want to before I leave Austin, but I had to work this morning and I didn't want to show up all weird-like. Joey assured me that probably wouldn't happen, but you know. I'm strange like that.

It just seems like I can't have the true Austin experience without getting high at least once! Right? Okay then.

Anyway, then we watched Threesome. If you can watch Threesome with 3 gay guys, I'd highly recommend it. It's fantabulous.

Threesome, if you haven't seen it which you probably haven't, stars Josh Charles, Lara Flynn Boyle and Stephen Baldwin. It's mostly about sexual tension between three roommates, and at the end, there's a threesome with 2 guys and a chick. And, yes, I am deviant, but seriously.. that's the best sex scene in any movie ever. As we all know, I like porn. But this was like.. better than porn. It was a lot hotter than porn because I guess they left a little to the imagination or what have you. But ever since I saw this movie 10 years ago, I've always thought it was hot.

But I digress.

As long as we're talking about porn (since I apparently have "mostly sex based content"), I was telling Joey about the boobs in Love Actually when I kinda realized something. Like I just said, I am a fan of porn, but when I'm watching regular movies, a stray boobie here or there kinda turns me off. Is that weird? I don't want to see boobs in my regular movies. That makes sense, right? Okay then.

My entry is all weird because I'm listening to "Bodies on the Floor" and it's a weird song to write an entry to.

Alec Baldwin is on SNL tonight, which leads me to yet another tangent. Watching SNL in general always makes me miss my old junior high/high school best friend Amanda. It was always such a staple of our lives when we were best friends, and it just always reminds me of her. She'd always spend the night on Saturdays, we'd watch SNL and then stay up all night marking up magazines or watching Stand By Me or playing with my dogs. That makes me so nostalgic for being 12 years old again, even though I hated being 12 years old.

I just miss her. I haven't talked to her for almost 6 years. That's too long to go without talking to someone who was such a major part of my life for so long. I just searched for her on Google, and.. no luck.

Searching for her just makes me miss her even more. So I'm going to shut up now.

You know, I don't go seeking out that show on VH1 about all the crazy stuff that celebrities are all about, but when I see it, I stop down. I have to watch it. It's so insane, it's just hard not to stare. I mean.. Lil Kim is just out of control. A $120,000 Chinchilla fur coat? Really? *shakes head*

Back in reality land, I'm really getting stressed by my job as of late. Or really, my lack of job. I only got to work for an hour today. And when I checked the schedule for next week, I had the exact same hours I have for this week, which is like.. a total of 9 hours. And really, I'll probably only work about half of those hours because that's the way it seems to work around here, and that sucks.

My dilemma is the same dilemma I've essientially had all year: I can't find another job at this point because first of all, it took me almost 3 months to find this one. Second, I'd have to quit in less than a month. It will be SUCH a relief to get back to Dallas and know that I have stability, to know that I'm not going to be going anywhere for a while.

So meanwhile, I'm barely getting 20 hours every 2 weeks, and while I have some money in my bank account, I still have bills, I still have to eat, and there's still Vegas to account for. Guh. Guh, that's what I say.

AND! I looked at the schedule and there's quite a few people who are getting a lot more hours than me, and I resent that. They are apparently trying to tell me something there. Do I really suck that bad? I thought I was doing a good job.

I'm just really bitter about this situation. If you couldn't tell.

"You probably won't remember me, It's probably ancient history, I'm one of the chosen few who went ahead and fell for you, I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch, I fell too fast I feel too much, I thought that you might have some advice to give on how to be insensitive..."

How much do I love that song? I love that song a lot.

I lurve winamp.

Also, just so we all know, things with Matt are going well at the moment. He actually called me the other day for the first time in months. I mean, we talk every day online, but for him to call me is big stuff. BIG! STUFF!

I feel like I should be wrapping this up, so in closing, here's a few of the songs I downloaded tonight because I like illegal MP3's:

No Doubt- It's my Life
Deftones - Minerva
Outkast - Hey Ya
GN'R - Bad Obsession
GN'R - You Aint the First
GN'R - Acoustic Don't Cry (*drooool*)
Flaming Lips - Do You Realize
Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyez
Sarah Mclachlan - Fear
Pink - Get this Party Started
Nirvana - Lithium
Blake Shelton - Old Red

I heart Kazaa!

I'm out.

*****

a year ago..

"1. So I IMed BB finally yesterday, and while no fights broke out or anything, it was pretty much like I didn't IM him at all. We talked about nothing of any kind of importance. No "I love you's" or "I miss you's".. he didn't even tell me when he left to go god knows where, and I didn't even know he was gone until I messaged him and got his away message.

*shakes head* I mean.. it's like he was talking to one of his aquaintances when he was talking to me. It sucked, frankly. I'm not sure what to do about this, exactly. I feel like I have to do something, but really, what is left to do? We can't "get back together".. it would be pointless, I'm leaving soon. So what am I waiting for? Good god almighty!"