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Do you guys want me to go back to just referring to people by their made up names? Cuz I can! I just thought it was a little lame that I couldn't call people by their real names, but if that's what yall want me to do, I will. Maybe that's just my angle in life or something. Let me know.. hehe.

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Having officially lived in Austin for a week now, I have the following observations to make:

1. Traffic.sucks. Seriously. I already knew that before I moved here, and now I get to experience it everyday. I have experienced New York City traffic in the afternoon, and I seriously think Austin might be worse. Dallas has double the number of people and still its traffic doesn't compare. It's just.. at a standstill. This might be the very thing that keeps me away from staying here too long. It.drives.me.crazy. I hate traffic so much. I will go miles out of my way just to avoid it.

I think you get the point.

2. It was such a short week! Even though I only had a tiny hint of a social life, the week really went by fast.

3. Every single person in this town either goes to UT or went to UT. I wish I would have gone to UT, but they generally don't like people who made terrible grades in high school.

4. It's a friendly city, I think. Yesterday I woke up from my nap, heard the ice cream man, and went to get me a fudge bomb pop. I'm not ashamed. I grabbed my little Kate Spade purse, crossed the street and got some ice cream. I left my door open a little and when I came back, there was this really pretty kitty walking around my apartment.

Now, I don't have anything personal against cats, I'm just allergic to them. And I lost the ability to see them as nice household pets after I dissected one in Anatomy in high school.

So I was all like, "hey kittie! Come with me! Come on kittie poo!" And finally he went outside. And when I closed the door, right before I did he looked up at me with his big kittie eyes and was all like "You betrayed me, bitch!" Well, I'm sorry! I'm allergic, okay?!

5. I need to make friends. Badly.

Okay then.

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I haven't talked to Matt since Monday, which is a good thing. He hasn't bothered talking to me either. I want to wait to talk to him until I get a job, which god knows when that will be.

I had this horrible dream about him last night, though. I had lots of weird dreams last night, and I think it may be because I took 7 pills before I went to bad last night. 3 motrin, 1 vitamin, 2 glucophage and 1 synthroid. Do you think that had anything to do with it? I should probably take my pills in the morning.

But anyway.. it was horrible. I cried and cried and cried and he just didn't care. I was trying to get him to leave his girlfriend for me, and it just wasn't happening.

I don't like knowing that he has a girlfriend, and I sure don't like knowing who she is and that she's perfect and was the cause of our almost break-up 2 1/2 years ago. It wasn't necessary to know that right now. It makes me sad, really. But it's good.. now I can move on without having surprises like that.

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On a similiar vein, I don't think I'm going to persue finding me a man in Austin quite yet. I joined Austin Matchmaker, but that just seemed so lame and I didn't even fill out the questionairre. Would I really want to find a guy there, the same way that I met Matt? I'd rather things just progress naturally when I make friends or whatever. If I don't find anybody.. I don't know. It's just not that important right now. I have to lose weight and do a bunch of other stuff before I'm comfortable with myself. I don't want to inflict myself upon people who haven't been prepared at this point in my life.

And there's the whole sex thing. When the subject came up at lunch the other day with Scott's friends that Matt was a virgin and we never had sex, they looked at me like I was an alien from the planet SocialDweeb. That just doesn't happen these days, I guess, and I don't want to have sex with the first shmuck who asks.

I'm confused. I'm just really.. really confused.

Anyway. I have to take a dump.

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What was Liz doing a year ago?

"Ever since my roommate left, it's been on with my vibrator. You'd think I was making up for lost time or something! You know, you'd never think by just looking at me that inside my mind is a deviant pool of porn. But there it is.. just waiting for me to jump in!"

and...

"I went out with Jeep Girl tonight. She's a very entertaining girl, yes she is. She's a virgin, so she had this whole barrage of questions for me about sex and swallowing and all this stuff, and I'm like.. hello.. boyfriend is a virgin.. it's not like I'm getting much over here, either. She's only like a year younger than me, so it makes me kinda giggle to know she's asking me Big Sister sex questions. "