I shouldn't be so isolated from everything around me. This can't be healthy for me. Although, just as I was writing this Joey called and we're going to see a movie tomorrow, so that's good. But still.. I don't have any plans for today except the lovely face wax, working out, and then going to do stuff by myself. I could call various people.. maybe my brother, maybe some church girls or something.. but, you know.

That's been a theme for far too long in my life. I mean.. back in Dallas at least I had Matt as a back up for things, but I don't even have that anymore. And I just went off on a whole Matt-inspired rant here, but I don't want my diary to be about that anymore, so I deleted it. But the point is.. I'm not feeling it from him anymore. And that dissapoints me. A lot.

I need a job so I can get to socialize myself everyday, like I did with the last one. I talked to people on the phone all day and made friends with a lot of the people who I went through training with. I need something. My psychologist doesn't think it's good that I'm so isolated from everything. I don't think it's good either, but it's just hard. I can't wait to move back to Dallas.. but I can't wait to prove myself here, either. But I'm running out of time, and I don't know if I ever will.

I should have just moved to Vegas instead of Austin. I really would have gotten my ass kicked there. I could work at a casino and tool around the desert in my SUV and make friends and not come home every month like I am now. But I digress.

But the good news is - it's raininig! Really really hard. And that just makes everything a little bit better. And it's 68 degrees. I have my door open and it's like.. really cold! I can get away with going with the whole sweater and shorts look today. I think that's my favorite look because it looks good on me. And that makes me happy.

And, you guys are going to so get tired of clicking on all my banners soon. Because I have about a billion of them. I'm trying not to be like a certain furry animal and like a certain person who apparently has way too much of an obsession with Chicago, but I also want people to read me and like me and approve of me. Love me, please? Thank you.

And as a sidenote, I'd like to address my hair issues again. Like I've said before, the Polycystic Ovary issue is a bad one in my life. It causes hair to grow in really annoying places. And like my hair.. it's dark black and stubbly and generally quite disgusting. So like, on my face.. it's very noticeable. I can't just bleach it because it's black! And that would just look weird. I admire people with blond hair that can get away with not shaving.. I just can't do that.

It's just so much fun being me, I swear!

But it's raining!

And Friends last night.. I don't know. It was frustrating. I hate how people don't tell each other things and it gets confusing and there's misunderstandings. I wish everyone on that show would just be honest with each other! But then Ross walked in on Rachel and Joey kissing and that was good because now he knows. Yay. I don't know about Rachel and Joey. It just doesn't feel right.

Okay then.

*****

What was Liz doing 2 years ago?

"28. In junior high, high school, and college, the football team at my schools have all averaged about 1 win a year. I don't know why. It's very sad.

29. I wish I would have gone to the University of Texas. I belong there. But I'm not there.

30. I used to be in love with Christian Slater. Like.. obsessively in love. Like.. I had his pictures plastered on every square inch of my walls. It was a little scary.

31. I asked Christian Slater in a round about way to come to my 12th birthday party, and was surprised and dissapointed when he didn't come.

32. I wrote a story about getting stuck in an elevator with Christian Slater once.

33. I've kept a journal since I was in 3rd grade, even though some entries say "I had nachos for lunch today instead of pizza."

34. I saw Tommy when it came to town in 1994 just so I could see Steve Isaacs, a former MTV VJ, who was Tommy.

35. I once went to a concert that consisted of Tonic, the Verve Pipe, and K's Choice. I don't remember a thing about this concert, and I'm glad.

36. Other concerts I've been to: Aerosmith, Tom Petty, Alanis MOrrisette, Smashing Pumpkins/Garbage, The Cure/Seven Mary Three, Fiona Apple/Counting Crows, Edgefest/Edge Christmas concerts,etc featuring Tears for Fears/Bad English/Stabbing Westward/The Nixons/Bare Naked Ladies, etc., Oasis, Goo Goo Dolls, Bette Midler, Micheal Jackson, Rockfest in 97 featuring Jewel/Bush/No Doubt, and lots of others that I can't recall, and that's all I can remember right now.

37. I've been to several WWF/WCW events, including Wrestlemania.

38. I've seen Cheech Marin, Roger Staubach, Delta Burke, and the big alarm clock guy from Public Enemy in person."