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I just deleted my last 3 entries. Why? Because I can, my friends, because I can. The last 24 hours have been a very strange and confusing time for me. It's very hard to talk so much to someone who admits they miss you and want to see you, but they can't do anything about it because a. They have to get their shit together and b. because of the ever present girlfriend. My mom said I shouldn't make myself so available to him all the time, but that's what I'm used to. That's what I do. I'm Elizabeth, available for Matt. Elizabeth And Matt. Now Matt and Lori and Elizabeth and herself. There is just no justice in this world. I know I should just say "Look, I can't talk to you for a while, it hurts both of us too much," but that would just be too smart. It's easy to talk to him. It's nice to talk to him, even if it did have me crying in the fetal position on my sofa in my pajamas at 5:00 today. That "Oh my god I'm going to throw up and/or choke on my tears" kind of crying that everyone loves so much. After that, I put my clothes on, put a little perfume on and went to a movie. I had to get out of here or something would have gotten hurt. I went to see A Guy Thing, which is seriously the most sucktastic movie I've ever seen. Whoever wrote that garbage needs some professional help, because it sucked so much ass. Craptastic, that's what it was. But it was still nice to get out of the apartment for a few hours. I also went to Barnes and Noble and spent way too much money. But thats me. That's what I do. When I'm depressed I either eat too much or go shopping, and shopping was the proper choice tonight. I bought a Coldplay CD. I never thought the day would come where I actually bought a Coldplay CD, but there you go. For your pleasure, I put the lyrics to "Clocks," a song that I've really been feeling lately, at the bottom here. I know you're excited. Below that is a song I heard for the first time tonight, "Picture" by Sheryl Crow and Kid Rock. I was really feeling that one too. Songs just mean a lot more when you've been dumped. Has anyone noticed that it's really hard to talk to someone on a cell phone? Like, when you talk to people in person you can tell when they're going to say something else so you don't say anything so they can say something. But when you're on the cell phone, you're constantly interrupting people when they begin a sentence and then it's all confusing and I really hate that. Damn phones. Here's some lyrics for you: Clocks, Coldplay Lights go out and I can't be saved You are, you are Confusion never stops, closing walls and ticking clocks (gonna) You are And nothing else compares You are ***** Pictures, Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow (Kid Rock) Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways ( Sheryl Crow) (Crow (Rock) (Both) (Rock) (Crow) (Rock) (Both)
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