In other news, today was quite strange. I was just really off balance all day. It was one of those days that if it didn't exist in the course of days, than nothing at all would be different. A wasted day, to be exact. It even included a three hour nap, AND a "I give up, I suck, I'm going to be a loser for the rest of my life" pity party at the movie. But I saw American Wedding and it was really good! It had me lol'ing!

And I keep sneezing.

That is all.

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What was Liz doing a year ago?

"In the year and 2 months or so I've been here, I've had a few obsessions. There was Russell Crowe , Elton John, Math Boy, even a weird one with my own boyfriend. And I've questioned myself with every obsession.. "Am I going too far in this? Is this affecting my school work? Should I reevaluate my sanity here?"

And I think right now, with my weird Axl obsession, the answers to all those questions is YES. Unequivocally yes. I AM taking it too far. I DO need to reevaluate my sanity. Because like I said in my earlier entry today, I've fucking dream about the asshole every single night! ALL THE TIME! I'm getting tired of it!"

What was Liz doing 2 years ago?

"I feel myself growing dependent on BB again. I go through stages like that sometimes. Where I sit online and wait for him to talk to me and when I wait for him to compliment me because I feel like shit and need his reassurance. But since that's not really what our relationship is built on, me feeling like shit and him reassuring me all the time, I usually get over it eventually. We work better when we're both independent yet together, too. I should shut up because I've talked about how much this has bothered me in the past. I hate talking about our relationship because I usually end up making myself sound like a hypocrit. Bah!"