August 11, 2004 |
Poetry to see and hear. |
I just did an entry, but it was boring. So here's some poetry.I want to share some poetry with you guys because that's just the kind of mood I'm in. I used to be such a poetry whore. The first one is one of my favorites because I wrote it after I listened to the book on tape version of Hannibal. It's really a very erotic story in some kind of twisted way. So here's that: Clarice As he enters the confines of my divided mind he closes the shades, opens the wine my eyes are empty, my thoughts are dust the trouble of lust the world continues but time stands still the vibration of my soul I can no longer feel heat has melted my weary mind I give it over to him he seems so kind the cobwebs on his heart are so easily swept away much to my dismay Here is a couple I wrote when I was with Josh. He really brought out the tortured poetry soul in me. Star Wars We went to see Star Wars twice after you ate your chicken and rice but we didn't end up seeing very much of the movie but what we did do was pretty groovy we did it on the floor I wanted more but I was paranoid that someone would open the door I'm a whore. This next one always depresses the hell out of me. I think it really captures the part of our relationship that was really unhealthy and desperate, two things I felt a lot during the time: Untitled - Written in May, 1997 What was one a glitter filled chocolate donut is now a fiery poisonous hell He laughs at my tears I pull my hair out He slams the door on his ankle I scream Suddenly he is kissing me and the donut is back but later as I stab myself with my keys I cry He yells and the poison is still there my friends mourn my death I mourn my life My wish of happiness no longer exists but sometimes I smile I get on top he comes inside I worry I skip he eats the nuggets I go 60 down Northwest Highway He lets me go when the song ends or when it's 12:00 God, it's so hard to love him and so hard to lose him my stomach hurts my neck has those strange things in it again I give my mom the number Not caring about lateral cones and volume pie equals r squared so I write, and it doesn't make sense F. Scott Fitzgerald on my mind my bare skin we worry together on the pay phone in A hall he accuses me again and I surrender again I'm not sure where this one came from, but I like it a lot anyway. Where the Cobwebs Grow there's a place where all dreams go to die. It's a place with no sun and no stars It's a place neither near nor far It's a place where cobwebs grow It's a place where we reap what we sow Silver wishes and misspent sorrow Where tears fall like rain on a rose Where it is, your heart only knows dream your dream, don't be afraid In the ocean of hearts, you dare to wade stick your toe in, it's not cold don't be afraid to smile as you grow old in the galaxy of hope, there's only two places to go; dare to dream, don't be afraid to grow or drift off to the empty sky where empty dreams go to die Yeah man. I think this one was about a chick. I am ,according to Matt, 99% lesbian. It happens. Passion (From December, 1995) My passion for you burns like fire your heart is the object of my desire Your beauty drives me crazy with want in my dreams, your face will haunt All I want is you in my arms, is that to much to ask? But you refuse to take off the mask. For your attention he and I will compete without you, I am not complete. I guess I will have to step aside When he comes around, it's like I have died. I love you but now I will let you go my love, I can no longer show my heart has broken, my soul has died my tears are no longer cried. I believe this one was written during the Bitter and Angry Break-Up phase, circa the Ryan era. Fuck you from November, 1995 Love is suicide my heart has died your heart has lied my tears have been cried your brain is fried fuck you. This is almost inspiring me to want to write more poetry. I haven't for a really long time, and that's almost a shame. Poetry rocks. Or something. I will stop beating you down now.
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